Thinking of you Rach. Jan 30 2010 11:38 PM

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Jan 30 2010 11:38 PM

This town makes me think of you everywhere I go. I am constantly reminded of good times we have had and I love every minute of it. Remember that time we wanted to be cool and drink wine coolers & we bought Zima! lol, we spit that shit out real quick. That was at the store on 90. & Everytime I pass that back road behind the high school I think of that night we went to Daphne Haunted Forrest and Brook had all those quarters and listening to VisaVersa. Dammit girl, I miss you. & the days of white eyeliner with silver eyeshadow over it & water bras + sports bra. Bethany knows what I'm talkin bout. love u xoxo

My dear friend, lost to an OD at the young age of 20.

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RACHEAL CAME INTO MY LIFE AT JUST THE RIGHT TIME. WE WERE YOUNG, BECOMING TEENAGERS, SETTING THE TRAIL FOR OUR LIVES TO GO DOWN. IT WAS 7TH GRADE. I HAD COME FROM ONE OF THE SMALLEST ELEMENTARY SCHOOLS THERE WERE IN MY TOWN. I KNEW OF HER BECAUSE MY GRANDFATHER WAS FRIENDS WITH HER DAD, YET WE HAD NEVER BEEN INTRODUCED. I SAW HER AT LUNCH AND DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND BREAK THE ICE. THE FIRST WORDS I EVER SPOKE TO HER WERE "ISN'T TERRY YOUR DAD?". SHE LOOKED AT ME LIKE THAT WAS THE STUPIDEST THING I COULD HAVE EVER SAID TO HER.

SOON WE WERE INSEPERABLE. SHE WAS THE OUTGOING, BEAUTIFUL, COOL ONE THAT EVERYONE WANTED TO BE AROUND. I WAS ALWAYS THE ONE TO BLEND IN. I ALWAYS LOOKED UP TO HER, AND SHE ALWAYS LED THE WAY. SHE WAS UP TO DATE WITH EVERYTHING, HAVING TWO OLDER SISTERS ALWAYS HELPED WITH THAT. SHE SHOWED ME THE COOL CLOTHES TO WEAR, HOW TO DO MY MAKE-UP, HOW TO WEAR A WATER BRA!, HOW TO SNEAK OUT, WHAT MUSIC WAS THE BEST, HOW TO HAVE FUN ON THE WEEKENDS. I EXPERIENCED MANY FIRST WITH RACHEAL, SHE WAS JUST SO DARING AND ALWAYS WILLING TO LIVE EVERY MINUTE TO THE FULLEST. ALMOST SCARED ME AT TIMES TO GO ON HER WILD ADVENTURES. BUT I LOVED EVERY MINUTE OF IT. THERE WAS ALWAYS SOMETHING TO DO, SOMEWHERE TO GO, SOMETHING TO GET INTO. SHE KNEW ALL THE OLDER PEOPLE TO HANG OUT WITH. WE WENT TO FOOTBALL GAMES, DANCES, BIRTHDAY PARTIES, THE MOVIES, TO GET OUR NAILS DONE, JET-SKIING, EVEN CHURCH ON HER DAD'S WEEKENDS. ONE NIGHT AT WAL-MART WE HID IN THE MIDDLE OF A CLOTHES RACK AND DRANK A DR.PEPPER AND LEFT IT THERE. I THOUGHT THAT WAS OUTRAGOUS AT THE TIME, LITTLE DID I KNOW. WE COULD CONVINCE MY MOM TO TAKE US ANYWHERE, AND ANYWHERE WE WENT. I WILL NEVER FORGET, EVERY TIME WE WOULD BE GETTING READY TO GO OUT, I WOULD NEVER BE SATISFIED WITH WHAT OUTFIT I WAS WEARING; I ALWAYS THOUGHT EVERYTHING LOOKED BETTER ON HER! EVERY SINGLE TIME RACH WOULD TAKE HER OUTFIT OFF AND GIVE IT TO ME WITHOUT EVER EVEN GETTING ANNOYED!! I DON'T THINK WE EVER HAD A REAL FIGHT, WE COULD JUST GET OVER ANYTHING THAT CAME ALONG OUR PATH.

NEAR THE END OF 7TH GRADE YEAR, RACHEAL HAD TO CHANGE SCHOOLS TO MOVE IN WITH HER DAD IN ELBERTA. I WAS DEVASTATED, BUT I KNEW IT WASN'T THE END. WE STAYED IN TOUCH BUT ALSO WENT OUR OWN WAYS WITH OUR NEW FRIENDS AND ACTIVITIES. WE STRUGGLED TO FIND THE TIME TO HANG OUT AS MUCH AS BEFORE. RACHEAL ALWAYS SEEMED TO ME TO BE MYSTERIOUS IN SOME WAY, LIKE NO ONE WOULD EVER KNOW HER TRUE SELF. IT STAYED THAT WAY FOR ME. WE COULD GO WITHOUT TALKING FOR WEEKS AND JUST OUT OF THE BLUE ONE OF US WOULD CALL THE OTHER AND ACT AS IF NOT A DAY HAD GONE BY. THAT WAS OUR REALTIONSHIP. TRUTH IS I THOUGHT OF HER ALL THE TIME. I MISSED HER, BUT DIDN'T KNOW IF SHE FELT THE SAME WAY, SO IT STAYED THAT WAY.

BY THE TIME HIGH SCHOOL CAME AROUND, WE WERE DIFFERENT PEOPLE. I STILL ATTEMPTED TO REGAIN THAT FRIENDSHIP WE ONCE HAD, STAYING WITH HER A FEW TIMES, TRYING WHATEVER I COULD BUT IT WAS TOO LATE. I WAS TOO SCARED TO TAKE ON THESE NEW WILD ADVENTURES. I KNEW WE WOULD NEVER BE THE PEOPLE WE ONCE WERE. WE WERE GROWING UP AND DOING ALL THE WRONG THINGS AND SHE WAS AHEAD OF ME ONCE AGAIN. SOME TIME DURING THAT FIRST YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL RACHEAL DROPPED OUT AND GOT HER GED. I HEARD LATER SHE HAD GONE INTO SOME KIND OF REHAB OR BOOTCAMP.

THE LAST TIME I CAN REMEMBER SEEING RACHEAL WAS WHEN SHE WORKED AT SONIC IN FOLEY. I SPOKE TO HER WHEN I WENT THERE BUT REALLY DIDNT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER ANYMORE. SHE HAD HER PINK CAR WITH A BUTTERFLY ON THE BACK WINDSHIELD..ANOTHER WAY OF SHOWING HOW SHE LIVED HER LIFE TO THE FULLEST, BRAVE ENOUGH TO PAINT HER CAR BRIGHT PINK! SHE WAS DOING GOOD FROM WHAT I COULD SEE, THATS WHY I THINK THE NEXT NEWS I WOULD HERE WAS SUCH A SHOCK..

I FOUND OUT SHE WAS IN JAIL ONE FRIDAY ON MY WAY TO ALABAMA FROM LOUISIANA. I LEARNED OF ALL THE THINGS SHE HAD BEEN GOING THROUGH AND WHAT WAS GOING ON IN HER LIFE. SHE WROTE ME A LETTER. I WAS SO EXITED TO READ THAT LETTER. I HADN'T SPOKEN TO HER IN FOREVER IT SEEMED AND I COULDN'T WAIT TO SEE WHAT SHE HAD TO SAY. SHE'D BEEN MARRIED, HOMELESS, IN SITUATIONS I COULD NEVER HAVE IMAGINED. JANUARY 30TH, 2009 SHE WROTE, " WHAT'S UP MY OLD FRIEND? MAN I WAS LOOKING AT YOUR PIC'S AND UR SO PRETTY AND I MISS YOU SO BAD. U WERE TRULY MY BEST FRIEND AND I'M SO GLAD TO HEAR YOU'RE DOING GOOD. I'M STRUGGLEING IN THIS HARD ASS WORLD AND YOU'RE DOING SO GOOD. .... I HOPE WHEN I GET OUT WE CAN HANG OUT AND BE BEST FRIENDS LIKE WE USE TO. I REALLY DO MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU TO DEATH. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF ME. LOVE ALWAYS, RACHEAL." THERE WAS A PICTURE AT THE BOTTOM OF HOW WE USE TO SIGN OUR LETTERS WITH OUR INITIALS.

APRIL 17TH I STOOD IN THAT CHURCH DOORWAY WITH MY HANDS OVER MY MOUTH, CRYING MY HEART OUT IN DISBELIEF. I HADN'T EVEN HAD THE CHANCE TO TALK TO HER ONE LAST TIME. I HAD WRITTEN HER BACK BUT NEVER PUT IT IN THE MAIL. I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE THE TRUTH. NOW I WILL NEVER HAVE MY FRIEND BACK, I'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO HANG OUT WITH HER AND BE BEST FRIENDS LIKE WE USE TO. WE'LL NEVER BE ABLE TO GO ON ANY MORE WILD ADVENTURES. HER DAD TOLD ME SHE HAD SAID WHEN SHE WAS IN JAIL THAT WHEN SHE GOT OUT SHE WAS GOING TO GET FAR AWAY FROM HERE. AND SHE DID. SHE'LL FOREVER TRULY BE MY BEST FRIEND, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE HER PLACE. I WOULD NOT BE THE PERSON I AM TODAY IF IT WASN'T FOR YOU RACH. I REALLY DO MISS YOU TOO RACHEAL AND I LOVE YOU EVEN AFTER DEATH.


R.I.P. RACHEAL MARIE LORD
JANUARY 17, 1989 - APRIL 15, 2009
true friends are never apart. maybe in distance, but not in heart.





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My name is Jenni and I am from Robertsdale, AL.
I grew up in this town, graduated from Robertsdale High School in 2007, and intend on staying in this area for a lifetime!

Therefore, this town holds my Past, Present, and Future.

As I have grown older, I have lost more and more classmates, friends, and family to overdoses.

This blog was made to stop this epidemic and discover ways to do so.

I believe we can help by educating our peers. If the facts are out there, possibly it can help!

Please contact me with any input! I am in need of suggestions!



xoxo, Jenni